just finished my chemistry mid sem. argh. this reminds me soooo much of last year... as USUAL, i crammed and i don't think i did really well... left a couple of blanks... and i didn't bring my student card!! i had no idea that we had to, thank goodness, Bob allowed me to bring it to the friday lecture. so that's that... poor HY!! he was so stressed about the exam!! but i'm sure he'll do really well... he got 82% for his essay. so :P. ya...but me and hm argh don't feel too good about our results... ah weell
i'm definitely NOWHERE near the top in medicine... however much i want to be... there's just so much that i feel that i don't know... and i don't understand the lecturers... nothing at all like trinity! but that's what i wanna be...so i've gotta work extra hard for the semestral exams...i have to start revising now! and...my $%@@#$ essay. i wonder how ben's doing! i think about my days in melb all the time *sigh*... and i'm rambling, i know...
on the happier stuff...
i saw the G/YHBG downstairs using the phone!! heee i'm so happy. i was completely daoed, even though i smiled... but ah well... little step by little step, HE WILL BE MINE. haha... i was just reflecting on the billion times i've said that, and the eventless outcomes... i always end up not doing anything... only this time... i've got caution on my heart. looking back on how last year affected me, and still does... i want to be careful. so very careful on choosing the right guy. i mean, sure, trial and error is great, but all the wasted emotion, and energy can be saved for the more wisely chosen guy.

oh. and i'm gonna use initials from now own to preserve the anonymity of my colleagues. muahaha. for every body's sakes.

and i've decided to join the worship team!! ISN'T THAT AWESOME, i mean, i've been longing to do so for soo long.. but doubts at my own ability, fear of burning out, fear that i would go for all the wrong reasons like personal glorification kept me for so long!And i looked at myself, and how imperfect i was, and i was scared too...because as worship leaders, you'd be the face of the church, that's what i think, anyway...... and i LOVE singing. like nothing ever... it gives me this genuine, joy to use this gift God has given me, ESPECIALLY if somehow, with it i can lead people closer to God.

anyway, i gotta go... xp is yelling :P