Hmm...I got to see one of my cell group member's blogs just now...he's in London on a job attachment, the lucky duck. and... just like he wrote in his blog - the pictures there invoked a thousand words to me.

England has always been my fairy tale land, where all the princesses come from and where all the princes ride through... Scotland, Ireland, Wales. Those places I long so much to visit! and he's there. there was this one picture in his blog, an ordinary seeming one - a backyard covered with snow, and there was this plant growing outside of it...drenched (but in a dry way :P) with snow. Like the leaves were serving you bits of ice cold beauty and bitter delight. I wished i was there, right then, just so i could leave my finger prints on them. Fingerprints in snow. And me and God would keep those finger prints a secret. i know i'm a whimsical doofus.... haha...

also...as a separate event, this guy i liked for a short time, started TALKING TO ME!!! and now, i'm afraid i like him all over again. ohnoohnoohno. i told God, that i wanted my heart to belong to him COMPLETELY before i open it to someone else, and that i wanted to focus on consecrating myself to him this year. i will do that regardless, so God, protect me, keep me away from guys that will take me away from you. Cos i want you, only. For this year, at least. and mom's REALLY creeping me out with some of the things she says... "Pray for a good man to come into your life, okay?" or WORSE...when she starts planning what to do with grandchildren... how did i grow from a girl- 'you're not ready for this kind of thing!' to... a 'marriagable' woman? and even then, i get goose pimples when i use the word 'woman' on myself. haha!